When You Are the Black Sheep…

I never truly felt at home anywhere. I was always searching, experimenting, yet a deep sense of emptiness often remained. As a child and later as a young adult, I experienced bullying that feeling of being labelled the black sheep, or at best, treated as an outsider.

It left a mark on me, and for a long time I thought something was wrong with me. Later I realized: it wasn’t about making mistakes, or not being “perfect.” It was about how deeply it hurts when someone is targeted out of pure malice. And how much it means when, on the contrary, there is someone who supports you, who stands by your side.

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I’ve never been able to stand seeing others hurt. There were times I stepped in, even when it meant I might get hurt myself. Later, I also learned to stand up for myself in certain situations. I know the strength it gives when someone is beside you, even when you don’t believe in yourself. And what it means to be part of a community when the ground seems to slip away beneath your feet.

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All the struggles I’ve lived through were not in vain. They taught me that the greatest power in human relationships is support and compassion. And if I managed to rise again and again, then others can too.

 

A Turning Point in My Life​​

In early 2020, I reached a turning point. I arrived as a volunteer to a farm in England because the noise of the city (Budapest) and the growing fog around my future felt suffocating. The quiet of the farm, the closeness of nature, and a diverse, welcoming environment helped me stop and ask myself once again: Who am I, and what truly matters?

Long forest walks with my dogs, books, and introspection carried me through this time.​​​

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I dove deep into books about self-awareness, and also enjoyed stories that entertained and uplifted me. Tina Seelig’s works especially stayed with me – I Wish I Knew When I Was 20 and inGenius: A Crash Course on Creativity. Another favorite became Vivien Varga’s How to Begin Your Own Journey, along with works by Rick Rubin, Elizabeth Gilbert, and Coelho.

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New Professional Paths​

After nearly two years, I left the farm and began job searching. To avoid feeling lost, I started volunteering at a nearby charity shop. A few weeks later, my dear friend Kiz – to whom I remain deeply grateful – told me about a special job opportunity.

I entered an entirely new field, and I’ll admit, there was a moment when I almost backed out, because – like every new beginning – it brought stress and inner tension. I wanted to do well, to prove myself, and I tried to approach every step of training with openness. The company’s leader, an inspiring, intelligent, and compassionate person, saw potential in me that I myself did not dare to acknowledge. After all, the comfort zone is always less frightening…

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Not long after, I was appointed shop manager – a moment that touched me deeply. It was one of those “when someone believes in you before you believe in yourself” situations, and it gave me incredible strength. I am grateful for that period, and especially for the trust placed in me.

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I also had the privilege of working with wonderful colleagues who set examples for me in countless ways. Now I speak of that time in the past tense, because the moment came when I decided to set out after my own dreams.

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On the Path of Self-Realisation​

I must admit, at times I am uncertain. Often naïve, sometimes a bit scatterbrained. I don’t always know exactly which way to go – or even if I dare to take the next step at all. A thousand questions race in my head: “Is this really for me? What if I fail?” Or maybe it’s just fear speaking in the language of ego, trying to hold me back from what could matter most.

But now there is a deep, inner voice calling more insistently. Whispering with such strength that I can no longer ignore it – even if it feels frightening.
The direction – and perhaps the companions – I will find along the way. Has it ever been like this for you too?

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The Power of Creating Together​

In recent years, I’ve felt more strongly than ever how powerful community and mutual support can be. When we share our stories and ideas, we don’t just inspire each other — we open up new dimensions of creativity, healing, and growth. I believe that creators are not competitors, but allies and mirrors.

One of my greatest dreams is to build a space — a community — where thoughts can flow freely, and everyone can add their own colours, voices, and stories. Whether it’s publishing books, organising events, or co-creating meaningful projects — I’m constantly searching for ways we can bring light, value, and connection into this world. And just as importantly: to honour the real, vulnerable, and beautiful human experiences that unite us all.

This is the true heart of the Dreamers and Seekers project. If you’re a dreamer too — or someone with wild, unruly ideas — don’t hesitate to reach out.  Maybe all we need is one spark... to light something much greater than ourselves.

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I’m sending this song to all of you who have ever felt the need to leave — even without knowing exactly where to go. That quiet — or sometimes loud and painful — whisper from the heart that says: something has ended here. But it’s not always dramatic. Sometimes it’s just a morning sigh. A workplace where you no longer feel like yourself. A relationship where you’re slowly forgetting your own voice. One thing is certain: every ending carries the seed of a beginning. This song carries the heartbeat of my story — a self-discovery-driven, romantic novel in the making, based on my own journey… and maybe a little bit on yours too.

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YouTube: InspireQuest - The Road That Breathes 

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​"Alone we can do so little; together we can do so much."

Helen Keller

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Perspectives and Reflections of Words
The thoughts, feelings, and experiences I share on this website are like a colorful mosaic, seen through the lens of my own perspective. This lens sometimes blurs, sometimes shines, and naturally, it might differ from yours.​

What you find here is simply a reflection of my personal journey.  And yes, words can occasionally slip, especially since English isn’t my first language. (Thanks to modern technology for helping me along the way!)​

Please see all this as an invitation to discover your own truths. If something resonates with you, explore it, try it out, and draw your own conclusions.

Let the journey of discovery begin! 🚀

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